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gee i know i'm totally a bum and i hardly give attention to this space;

but here I am because i don't want those memories to fade from me.

it's like how this camera/film brand declares proudly in its slogan "memories can fade, but photographs shouldn't". or was it the other way round? nah, it's no longer important as with better technology, the way we live is constantly altered. i won't launch into my study stuff and bore myself or anyone who happens to be reading this.


i had a really memorable birthday this year. i mean, last year (and the past 20years) has been wonderful, and this year is no exception. :)

I took it much easier this time, and instead of stressing myself up and organising something, I decided to go with the flow and celebrate my birthday with dinner dates with my friends. :)

i guess sometimes i really do take things a little too hard on myself and people around me, but please pardon me as it's never personal nor intentional.


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Me and WEBE!





Thank you to everyone who took time off to attend this party. I am ashamed to say that I was not the one who planned, but thanks to Mike, GY, TeddyThomas and everyone who has helped to plan this party, book the chalet, or helped in one way or another. I love the presents I received! It's not the value, but it's often the thought that counts. I am really touched that some of them actually bothered to listen through my aimless rambling and remembered what I liked/do not like to purchase the gifts.

Thank you, and all these mean so much to me.
Thank you for your encouragement, your advice,  your ceaseless support, your lame jokes.
Thank you for always being there for me, good times and bad times alike.
Thanks for helping me grow as a model, and also a person :)

P.s: I'd try to settle my scanner so I can scan more of our Polaroids and upload them at this space!


Me and Despos!

(Actually I think we ought to change our name, as I cringe everytime I type this.)



I concluded I look very pasty without much makeup. Please pardon my tired face and give it credit as a sacrifice to the sleepless nights rushing my endless assignments :(



Me and the fellow Libran; fellow vainpot.                            Silly things we do, but always looking cute.


Thank you two for your VOUCHERS.

Even without the voucher, I know you guys are one of those I can rely on despite rain or shine.
Thanks for bearing with my nonsense and bimbotic chanter, thanks for boosting my ego by being impressed at my knowledge of the game theory.
Thanks for always being by my side, and disturbing me even when you know I'm rushing an essay.

Well, Gorgeous Gary, you got to clean up your act before assuming your position as vice-pres! haha! ming toh, you're too slutty already! haha!


Love you guys, i can't put in words how grateful I am to have you guys around for the past decade (gawd, i sound so old). Meeting up with you guys never fail to make me feel instantly better despite a long day.


Me and Litpeeps!





Thank you everyone for taking precious time off our term break to have this little celebration. Thanks for the presents, I <3 Rilakkuma and I <3 you guys!! :):)

School has been so much better with you guys around! Thanks for keeping me company, bearing with my nonsense during stressful periods, thanks for taking time out for lunch and shopping (though amelia and stef, you girls got to keep me and jason in check!).

It's funny how most of us are habitual late-comers haha! But we are really soft-core people too :):)




Special thanks to Miss Paranoid, Steven, Jason and Stef : Thank you for planning the dinner and meetup. Planning is a big headache I know, and thanks for the effort. Had a great time with you guys :):)


Me and LeeChampChamp the Owner!



Thank you Mr Lee for Miu Miu the Bag and Miu Miu the Bear.

Although now we have to munch on Korean QQ instant kimchi ramen and white bread for the rest of the month, but everything I have decided with you, regarding you, I have no regrets. (And they are often my best decisions ever).

xx.



Thanks to Mom&Dad for the generous red packets, birthday cake and a very boisterous celebration as usual. 


Lastly, thanks to everyone for your FB/SMS/Phonecall greetings for my hatch day :) Hope your day went beautifully too!







Some pictures from my recent photoshoots :) Credits to the respective photographers.


Retro-fever!



Credits to Francis Goh and Jeff :)

 





Montage





 

       








Credits to Mike S, Francis Goh, GY, Lenrek Photography :)

unfortunately, this post is not dedicated to some of my BFFs' favourite show of all time (or maybe favourite character of all time to be exact).


i think epistemology is an amazing explanation for changing times; condensed and nicely topped off with a cherry through culture.

i know that sentence has wonky expression and is convoluted beyond human comprehension (regular humans i suppose). well, perhaps language's gotta take a temporary backseat in way for fluency in expression. or maybe, the process of transferring thought into expression. anyhow, it's until i have the time for my spellcheck.

nonetheless, adhering to how i was often advised not to seek to explain myself excessively in the space here, it's one of the remaining private places for me to vent my frustrations. Or maybe, just to jotter down some of my random thoughts so I can spare my overworked mind some sorting out processes.



somethings,
you can do,
will do,
but cannot do.

somethings,
you must do,
in that way,
and can't do,
but got to see it done.



not meant to be understood, like the many ironies (and mysteries) of life.

Things that are ineffable and unexplainable are the most intriguing, and wilth the quality to stimulate the most affection and interest.
perhaps, this idea should be considered with the context I am currently in,
which I cannot deny, influenced my opinions greatly.




anyway,
how often do you find yourself not being able to voice out the very last minute,
or feel the tinge within yourself when you hear some melody,
or even perhaps, the tug in your heart when your mom brings you something.



things that cannot be explained,
things that have no definite,
things that i have no answers for.

tomorrow's the highly anticipated Mommy's Day.

I'm not a mommy, but it was a good excuse to thank her (my mommy) and get away from her teasing (yes mom, your winking with tongue out is not sexy, tyvm).




In continuation to my previous post,
i think someone tickled Aphrodite,
or probably the Cupids awoke,
it has been quite an arguable season of love.


people getting hitched,
people getting attached.
yours sincerely still remains blissful and happy with my choice :)



hee hee!




i realise how little i have spoken about my parents,
though they're such important people with such enormous influence in my life.

Even if they're not beside me,
or even when I'm away from them,
somehow, I always feel they're near to me, inside my heart.


I guess this is getting cheesy, but this is a long overdue tribute to both of them.


Thank you for your tolerance, mom and dad.
I know sometimes, me, along with the other two monkeys, are incredibly irritating and troublesome max.
But you guys brought us up well,
and you'd get your just desserts. (pun intended, bird's nest optional)



I LOVE YOU MAMA-BEAR (and petty PAPA-BEAR).

Stop defending yourself.
You can do it once, twice, many times.
You can, and will do it again.
Your justification don't work on me.
Even more when you try to argue your way on me.



Women are not so stupid to not know you're trying to cast a net.

come on, if i didn't care, i would have left you to rot.
or just leave you to waste and pull up MY GPA in the bloody bell curve.
i don't go around telling people to mug.


hao xin mei hao pao.